is that a pain in the ass or what??

well...one problem due to reading the twilight series...

NOW...im searching for the perfect girl for me..

but its getting on my nerves..im friggin comparing everything to the damn book..

and its kindda getting on my nerve's...but what can i do???me??

its my brain that controls everything...

well just to make it harder..

almost all my friends are there...with their chics..and now im the one without anybody..

c told u...im changed...

but i can bet you ...that most of them are not going to last..

k not jealous or anything..its just that they r together ...

just for the he's my bf/she's my gf thing...

i want more of a love thing..and i feel like a boring old hag now...

hahahahahaha k lar again im venting...

fine i shall not use my blog to vent or go on about my love life...

k here a picture...because truthfully..my blog looks kindda dull..so here you go..

okayy....

If i had any dignity of a man..i should probably delete this post NOW..

but what the hell lar..its my blog and im bored and it is how i feel...so screw it okayyy...

i mean SCREW U if u think im gay...HHAHAHAAH

btw dont judge me....

i think its time to take my blog to a whole new level...

like more truthful and sincere and all...

k lar...im so bored..im on the phone with Neva now,,then later Ng gonna call me at 1..

but im still boredd..................

k larr....byeeeee

Graceeeeee......

hello there...okay Grace Soh is leaving to auzzy to night...

damn i gonna miss her...

she was my short hugger(she loves hugging peaple)

cam whore who takes awesome photos.

as blur as i am (which is very hard to find someone that blur)hahahah

fun..

crazy...

thats her..but that hardly describes her!

well...this us...

i just wanna say...

GRACE WE LOVE YOU...

thanks for all the fun memories..

hope you will be the fun and loving girl you always are...

v shall keep in touch through facebook...

byeeeeeeee for now...

truth......

wassup u all???

k how was my week..i got three words..

HECTIC HECTIC HECTIC..

im seriously gonna fall sick lar...grrrrr.

i have been the grumpy-est yet so far..

i kindda like how it feels that everyone is so careful around me...k its not normal..i know

well im not getting the one phone..im trying to be smart and strech my $$...

i think Form 4 is friggin hard lar...and the homework ,do they want us to sleep at all??

k now im actually to tired to blog..nak tido larr...

k i feel like writing in Malay lar now..k fine its my blog ill do what i want

so mmg larr beberape hari ni ku mmg agak kurang berdisiplin..hahahah

ku dah nak habis baca Breaking Dawn..

best giler lar buku tu..mmg bersemangat nak baca setiap malam..

k skrg ku nak complain tentang guru Physics saya...

saya x puas dgn ajaran guru tu!!dah lar Physics susah tambahan lagi..

dia ajar dalam bahasa Melayu..ARGHHHHH

sekarang ku duduk belah Nevania...Divyan(celake tu) pegi India untuk dua minggu...

tapi boleh tahan lar...i suka duduk dgn Neva..lebih senyap..hahahahah

k cukup lar..dgn bahasa melayu ku yang agak menarik..hahaha perasan do ku ni..

can u understand this at all???if  u can u r a true Malaysian..hahahah

k larr...g2g now..relly need that sleep...o yeah...

THANK GOD FOR COFFEE...

it keeps me awake everyday faithfully while im dead tired inside...

k byeeeeee... GRACE  I WILL MISS U...c u soon..

i want a dog....

just did up total make over for my blog .

.well just saw this picture and thought it was the cutrest thing ever..

okay...i so need a Golden Retriver now...i wanted one for so long already

but due to my hectic life all i can keep is a fish..hahaha

k lar g2g for tuition now..ARGHHHHH..

bm=3 friggin hours!omg..i know..

wish me luck..byeeee

wanna know me?

What's a fact about the last person who had their arms around you?
Grace Soh..(she leaving)=(

What do you currently hear right now?

emo songs from Jemp

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
bought it in hush puppies in jj..

When was the last time you were told you were beautiful?

never i think=D

Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you?
not a necklace just a normal chain.

Could you go a day without eating?
I cant..do you want me to die??

What was the reason you got grounded for last?
hardly ever get grounded more screwing..then forget about it the next day.=)

Do you wish you never dated someone you dated?
nop.not really.

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?
Yeap..

Do you still talk to the person you last dated?
Yeap.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
J???Nope.

Do your parents force you to go to church or let you make the decision?
i want to go to church.its fun.

So you smoke weed regularly?
Noooo...

When it comes to the opposite sex, what's your "type"?
someone who can keep me happy.

Where is the furthest place you've traveled?.
hmmmmmmm..dunno lar??im not really thinking now.

Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
Dad..carbon copy of my dad ''it seems''

How long does it take you to shower?
I can take a very very long shower and i can dream in the bathroom..

Can you do splits?
hahahah..NO..

Are you flexible?
no.not really.

What did you do on New Years Eve?
hmmm...went to Samuel's hse then when and visited my grandparents while messaging a friend.=D

Was your mom there?
yeap but the messaging part.

Can you speak any other language than English?
Malay and understand Malayalam and a little bit of Tamil

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
Yes.

What jewelry do you wear all the time?
the black band.

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
Yeap..not really a kiss..more of a pat on the cheek.

What was last thing you drank?
Milk and water.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
ahhhhh..nothing..o yeap,i want the right girl.=)

What is for dinner tonight?
ahhhhh..to many,just the usual indian dinner.

Where is the person you want most?
ahhhhh...Klang.

Where will you be 2 hours from now?
in my bed.fast asleep..

Ring tone?
the blady nokia tune for now.

Does your ex miss you?

we are still friends so???

Does anyone love you?
I hope so..

What are you doing tomorrow?
Sunday!church and then tuition for 3 hours...SAD.

Do you fall for people easily?
you bet.very easily.

How has the week been?
Hectic.

Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
Me me and me..and it was an awesome time with my-self..

Do you have anything in your pockets right now?
handphone and mp4..

How much clothes do you have in your closet?
not little...

Will you and your most recent ex ever get back together?
thats a ahhhh NO..

Are you high-maintenance?
I can be.

Have you ever showered with someone?
No.......

Where was the first kiss you had with the last person you kissed?
havent had one..WHAT??OMG??i know..im a one girl person k.!

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Nevania???

Do you curse in front of your parents?
are you planing on getting me killed or something??

What would you do if your best friend told you they were moving?
I'd be emo as usual..

At what age do you want to be married?
Before I reach 35

Where is your mom right now?
In her room

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
nothing sinful..hahahaha

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
yes..but im trying my best to get back to her because she is HER..

What girls can you tell everything to?
Kour and Neva??but not everything everything..just a little..

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with an A?
A?? Amma and Appa?

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
Warm inside and cold outside yes.

Three days in a hotel or NFL game tickets?
Hotel..im more of a peace seeker.

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
bring it on as long as im legal for it.

Would you rather watch football or baseball?
I'd choose athletics.=Dor swimming.my passion.

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
yeap..i think so.

When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
depends if they are worth my time and strength.

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a someone that treated you bad?
Yes.and i think i wont repeat that mistake now.

Have you ever fell asleep in someones arms?
hmmmm.......

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
Yes.can i know your definination of kiss??

Does anyone hate you?
hmmm...i dont think so..but if they do i dont care..

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes.a 3rd one if they need it.=D

Have you chewed gum after someone else already has?
Ewwwwwwwwww...no im not that person.i can afford a new chewing gum.

What is one place you would NOT want to go to for a first date?
The place i and my ex broke up..??

Last thing you ate?
coco-crunch..

Can you raise one eyebrow?
I can.

Ever thrown a shoe at somebody?
Lol...Noooo...

What's something you need from the drugstore right now?
No..maybe a body ache pill..

Tell me about the shirt you're wearing?
grrrr..waste time only..its bright yellow and its hush puppies and im wearing it to sleep..happy?.

What do you wear to bed?
Shorts and tee.

What do you smell like right now?
I smell like a person who just took his bath.=)

What color is your bedspread?
brown and earth colours..

How do you feel when someone you like kisses you?
**no comment**

Who's the last person to kiss you on the cheek?
I really lost my memory.

When was the last time you saw your grandpa?
Yesterday.

Do you know anyone with cancer?
No. I don't want to know. I would not be able to handle.

Is your room clean?
clean yes neat not really.

Has anyone gotten on your nerves lately?
Yes.a lot

Are you tan?
No. Darker than tan.

What color is your underwear, seriously?
ahhh...checking now..hahaha dark blue.

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
maybe but tonight it is a YES.

Do you have a crush on somebody?
yeap..more that a crush maybe a big confused crush.

Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
Once.and quite a few times after that..i got a lot of best friends so yeah.

Do you walk around naked?
In my room yes.

Where do you shop at most?
Malls.

Who gives you the best advice?
I don't take advices from everyone.It depends.

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
Yes. I do that everytime and end up back firing...grrrrrrr..

Ever had the opposite sex over when no one was home?
Nooo...

Does the person you like, like you back?
I really am praying NOW...

well that a few questions about me and here is this thing i took from FB and its really

quite accurate...

Your Life = At first glance, people think Anton are quiet type of person. Actually Anton are cheerf...ul, but conditionally. Anton will show Anton's joyful character only in good mood. One the other hand, when Anton are moody, no one would dare to be around. Because of Anton's emotion fluctuation and frank character, some find Anton hard to be around.

Your Love = Anton hardly show Anton's feeling towards opposite sex no matter how much Anton like him/her. Anton's partner also has similar character so Anton's Love affairs often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all. Anton's sincerity makes Anton very attractive.

 this pictures represents everything important in a life i think.??=)

well how was my day..as u can see..im bored now but it was awesome just now..

read Breaking Dawn like now going the 100th page...awesome story man..

k everyone go and listen to Tracy Chapman-Fast Car..i know her voice is not exactly beautiful..

but it is true and just so u know not emo but the words make you think and think...

well k lar...g2g nowwwww...

BYEEEEE.

dont think will be here till next Friday...wish me luck for next week..ARGHHHHH..

u never had me before and you will never have me now.!

k..1st i wanna say..

i havent been here for a long time because i  CANT..

some lame house/parent rules..grrrrrrrrrrr

k how's life peaple???

well im in s3 fyi..separated from everyone but lucky that there are quite a few of k1 students in my class!!

k 1st day of school was blady boring..i know..it sucks.!and i had so much of homework on the 1st day.

truthfully i blog more like because i need to vent nowdays.

well believe it or not,im changed ask anyone in my class or any of my friends..

I BECAME THE QUITE ONE.

is that possible.im usually the happening noisy one.how come i changed?

well,dont ask me.i think i just am lazy to talk to anyone an dont see a reason to waste my words!

k i think im really changing lar now..so age huh??

well another huge problem...i cant get my c-box back...and im getting pissed.

o yeah..talking about being pissed im more impatient now that ever..

i am so grumpy i think i lost the fun me now.

i just find so many peaple annoying lar now....

k i got leaders meeting on Sunday but not sure i can go..

i've got tuition..arghhhhhhhh..damn man damn..

well i've got tuition everyday but firday's and Saturdays..

and im dead tired everyday..i mean TIRED TIRED k..

k Neva helped me a lot...

well now im like so tired im running out of ideas on what to write.

well..i will change peaple i will..

o yeah...failed my guitar exam by 4 marks.

thats sad..i know.. its like the 1st time i actually failed at something..like seriously in paper..

arghhhhhhhh..k lar overall it was NOT A GOOD WEEK..

i was just so tired and grumpy and drowning in homework to enjoy life.

k byeeeeeeeee for now..c u asap kay??

well hope u had a better week than me so yeah..

bye.

the song of my life for now is MATCHBOX 20-UNWELL...awesome larrrr..

hows the yellow writing??so not my mood now.!=D

o yeah i need your opnions..

should i get a 1) i-pod touch and a nokia express 5800 

or

2)xperia x10 sony erricson.

one tree hill.

well if you're thinking why the hell did this dude name this post after this show

it's because im listening to the soundtrack now

simply awesome....

well school starts in like 1 day...arghhhhhhhhhhh

have to go and write my name and all in the books soon......

well how was my day????

its was awesome because of g2...then when for dinner with mama,debs,lizz and all the older g2 leaders.

steamboat...ate ate and ate..

=D

well...k lar just wanted to type and o yea THANK JEMP FOR THE AWESOME SONGS.!

k lar shall i go now??

what u dont want me to go??

awwwwwwwwwwwww...sorry lar sayang have toooo.!

k this is seriously lame.

well today i just had this thought that...hmmmmmm how do i put this??

i think that i should be more in control of my life and all.

like nowdays im seriously becoming more hot tempered and all,

but the truth is that is not who i am...i just became that person

i practically will fight with anyone who is wrong like wth???

i mean nowdays peaple are just so freaking RUDE man!!

wth???ask Rebekah if you dont believe me

i actually told of the guy who like controls the parking in klang town off..

k this is the situation....

my mum just wanted to park the car,and go to the book shop and get like some books...

and this man comes and ask for 3 bugs???

wth??i mean i know its only 3 dolars and i cant do anything with it ..but i felt like y should v even pay??

when our car is just gonna be there like for what 5 minutes??

then i told the indian man that and he said this is a private parking and where was it??by the side of the road

i mean seriously if my mum didnt give me the STOP IT AND COME NOW look..

i would have got the 3 bugs back..

and another one.!!

k this not not like me being racist or anything 

and please dont judge me all k?

the other day i was in sunway..some jeans shop i think it was lois or something lar..

and this chinese man(the boss)was like scolding this indian girl(worker)

and making her do all the work and all while the other worker(this malay chic)

was just standing like a damn modal??

i mean come on lar..and to tell you the truth i really felt bad..like how can he treat this indian girl like this?

because that man was like really humiliating that indian girl and all..like telling her 

''kalau you tak dpt cari you ahhhh tak payah kerja sini lagi''

and many more...

in front of peaple...and ME.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i told my dad then my dad was like i know but what to do lets just go lar.!!

i was like nooooo...i wanna say something again he told me to just follow him.......

next time i'm not gonna ask anyone just go and screw that man..

i mean if you want to be so rude get a blady maid lar at least..but still no one is meant to be 

treated that way..

the next time i go to sunway im so gonna go there and check..

i mean if nobody stands up for that girl she is gonna be in that state for like forever..

and u know,the indian girl looked like really poor thing all..

i personally 1st time in my life really felt bad as an indian not being able to do anything.!!

and everything and everyone just seems to be pushing me to the limit lar.!!

i mean normally when i see peaple throwing rubbish by the side of the road..i make sure my dad or anyone hons...just so that they know some peaple care.!

and now it seems like everyday someone is throwing rubbish by the road and most of them are really small kids.!!

really making me go red and have to control my self from using certain words all..

but i think thats my main plan lar this year

i will make a difference

screw what peaple think,if its wrong i'll try to correct it..no matter what or how old or whatever lar..

k lar damn tired actually.!!

so byeeeeeee

c u asap.!!

and please once again dont judge me.!!

thanks...